Auf dem Zaun

Because I was inexplicably lucky (kind of typical for me), an invite code landed in my inbox yesterday. So I'm posting for the first time from my shiny new Dreamwidth account.

From now on I will be posting to Dreamwidth and crossposting to LJ (but not to IJ, sorry guys. It's a question of how many people I know there). Comments will be kept to Dreamwidth only. That shouldn't pose a problem for any of you; you can comment there with OpenID, for example with yourusername.livejournal.com, and anonymous comments are permitted, too.

If you're already on Dreamwidth, don't de-friend me on LJ yet. I'm still getting used to everything and might get confused with crossposting, or forget, and in exeptional cases filtered content might still land on LJ. Defriend me on LJ when Dreamwidth open beta has started.

For those of you on LJ/IJ who don't know much about Dreamwidth and why anybody should move there, these posts might be interesting to you:

schattenstern: Dreamwidth - What it is and why I will be moving there

helens78: Why Dreamwidth? Because sheep are awesome.

I hope to see many of you here soon.


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Nono, I'm not really here. You're imagining things.

To be honest, I felt weird without access to the internet as soon as I was in S. and away from other action. It's scary. I don't like it when I find myself showing symptoms of addiction.
Well, I borrowed my mother's computer temporarily and am trying to cut down my computer time instead of not being online at all.

Merlin fandom is not that good for me. Because it is such a young fandom I thought I could actually keep up with things, but there's so much fic, meta, communication going it that looking at one of the comms already overwhelms me. I'm a slow reader, and I have other things I want to do. Plus, I want my own access to the series, my own reading, and I'm letting other people's talk influence me far to much. It will spoil my fun if I'm not careful.

All of this probably is just a symptom, too - it shows that I'm taking fandom too seriously. ( introspection )

I went to the isLove Generator; it gave me a most interesting love bar.

existentialism is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator

I could probably write another master's thesis in philosophy about this one. ;) But oh, it is so very fitting for me.

Now, the real reason for the seemingly narcisstic post of narcissm is an altrustic one: (haha) Dragon Egg wants to grow up.


PS: My cats! My cats came back from their holidays! Joy! *hugs the cats*

Now, you won't be seeing a lot of me for about a week. I'm going to my cousin's wedding tomorrow, then I'll be in S. for a short time, without my computer, which will be quite the experiment. But it doesn't make much sense to carry around a laptop without a functioning monitor.
Tell me if something important happens. Tell me if someone writes good Merlin fic. Email and comments should reach me.

Unrelated, #1: I dreamt that I was Wolverine, but I lived in my flat, and a girl who claimed to live in the the flat below mine wanted me to sign a form that said I wouldn't play loud music anymore. Wolverine was very confused. Then he got a distress call, and he ran to the playground where Nick Fury, Black Widow and some others were under attack. He jumped elegantly over the playground wall and saved Nick Fury's life. It was kind of romantic. Then we ran away from the playground and everything exploded around us. Adventure!

Unrelated, #2: Yesterday I was depressed due to hormones, so I wrote something to make me feel better. It was supposed to have three sentences. Uhm. I'm posting it because it made me happy and I think it might work for shiun, too, but it's not really anything. It also has ( Spoilers for Merlin ep. 1, and an smiling in overdose. )

Have a good week, will you? :)

I'm way to tired to write an even remotely reasonable entry, but my dragons grew up and I have two new eggs that need views. So I'll have to talk about something in order to conceal the true purpose of this post.

The best choice of things to talk about would of course be Merlin, not only because it is so very brilliant, but also because I need proof that I've been there at the early days of the fandom. If I don't contribute, how will I be able to say "I started watching Merlin shortly after the third episode aired for the first time", showing off in front of the hundreds of young newcomers who are going to search for fic in five years time? You know, like me. I always come late to fandoms, SJA and Merlin are notable exceptions.

Everyone already talked about this. And my brain doesn't work so well just now because it wants sleep. So, just one thing.

I'm pretty sure the series has a lot more than teh mega slash potential.
As you know, I like slash, but I'm not a real slasher, being equally interested in het, femslash, polyfic and sometimes even in non-shippy stuff if it's good.
When I decide whether I really like a TV or comics series, these days I seem to be all about the teams - the 'main cast' and the chemistry between them, plus the location where it all takes place. Both is brilliant here; all the characters rock. Camelot and the whole (fanfic!)legendary scenario draws me in.
This might also have to do with my other fandoms at the moment, most of which seem to include Excalibur, Great Britain or at least fairies. And yes, of course there are lots of crossovers in my head.

The only thing on TV that is as great as Merlin is The Sarah Jane Adventures. It is so wonderful, I have no words. (I'm so in love with Sarah Jane.) If you like one of these series, you should watch the other. They have the same strenghts and so far none of the weaknesses most other TV programmes show.
I am proud to say:

MY FANDOMS CAN APOLOGIZE WHEN THEY DID SOMETHING MEAN. MY FANDOMS CAN SAY THANK YOU WHEN THEIR FRIENDS SAVED THEIR LIVES. MY FANDOMS CAN MAKE THEIR FANS HAPPY.

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Now, dragons.

I adopted the green egg; the orange one is Fyr and Sajasi's child.

I'd love to share my state of mind right now, but I'm not sure that's possible. It feels... really creative, jungle-like, hot with lots of intense dreams about love and adventure.
Completely chaotic, tired, filled with information. Bearing text and being born from text.
Why was I ever afraid of this? Revolutionary ideas are born out of textual overdose, too much visual input (at least in my case).

The thesis, though: not so revolutionary, with more loose ends than anything else, and tying them up is the most difficult thing, because there is always more, of course, and the only technique I know to make a chapter come to an end is polemics, which is pretty much forbidden in academic work. I think. Couldn't manage without it nevertheless.

It is almost finished. (Finished? I don't know 'finished'.) And it's not. It's raw, bloody, too short, the chapter order makes no sense. It's not saying anything new, but it's collecting and trying out things. I like it, in a way - even if it screws up, it's still my child.

What it gave me, examples.: A NaNo idea. Knowledge, to serve as a basis for further study. The realization that I still want to be a scholar. Good times with good literature. Reminded me of my weird desire to connect all the dots on a map. Manga and comics fandom. A thousand beginnings for just as many possible projects. Knowledge, about the way I work.
I don't know if I can do it, yet.

Sleep now. Another exhilarating workday tomorrow. Before that: more dreams of eternal love.
All in all: yay.

They have all gone quite insane. It is fun to behold, so far.
But they should really try and get some costumes soon, all with the X-storylines and stuff.

( spoilers and a bit of a rant )

*returns to the real superheroes and mutants now*

Alright then, finally.

If you see this, post a quote from Stargate Atlantis in your journal

"I really thought there’d be more hot girls."

So, everyone is reading and reccing SGA Big Bang fic.
Not me, of course. I'll be getting to that, but right now I'm busy *cough*
... digging through older Marvel fanfic. In my free time! I still have free time! It's not September yet.

What I actually wanted to say is:
Yesterday I read some of the best porn EVER. I would like to recommend it to you.

crimsonquills: Context is Everything is a 2k PWP.
It has: Steve Rogers, Tony Stark and the Iron Man armor (!!). While I know that almost nobody on my friendslist knows this fandom, I think that maybe really good porn (with armor!!) can still be really good porn (with armor!!!) even if you don't know who you're reading about. And some of you probably know the Iron Man movie, so you can just imagine that Tony has a nice blond boyfriend named Steve (who happens to be Captain America, but that doesn't have to be the point for you).
Context is Everything also did have quite a few (textual, not sexual) attributes that I don't usually go for in porn, but here not only did they not keep me from enjoying the fic, but I think I might have started to think of them as comletely plausible and natural and erotic. I cannot recommend this enough.

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Some other rather random stuff:

- Iron Man was at the GC. Well, okay, probably he just placed his armor there and didn't visit the GC himself, but.

- I have a slight language/ terminology problem: "trope" =/= "Tropus". "trope" = "Topos" ?? Does anybody know that?

- ???

(No spoilers this time.)

I think I found out the reason for Bendis to write Secret Invasion.
It was all to prove that NICK FURY WAS RIGHT all along.

Am surprised to see how much fun Captain Britain and MI-13 is. Avalon in a superhero comic, it's just... colourful and british and more than a bit weird. Awesome. Will have to continue reading the series, which makes that 3 per month.

The comic shop owner says that mostly people in their twenties buy comics, when they get older they stay away. It sounds almost as if he'd think it to be fate, that you can't read comics anymore when you turn thirty, you just can't, like it's a paradox that can't be solved. I wonder if on my 30th birthday I suddenly turn into a different person and stop being interested in geeky stuff. Sounds like a nightmare.

( very small spoilers for Mighty Avengers #13 )

I just watched the 1998 Nick Fury TV movie with David Hasselhoff, and contrary to all my expectations I LOVED it. It was great fun to watch, had everything a film about S.H.I.E.L.D. needs: the helicarrier, LMDs, HYDRA and little espionage movie gimmicks. Val (whom I don't really know much about yet but will soon). And David Hasselhoff can actually act - he did a great job with his role as Nick Fury, down to the details. Of course the film was a bit trashy; the German villains were hilarious (in a good way!) But I never would have thought that I could believe Hasselhoff when he'd try to pretend to be Colonel Fury, and I did. I forgot about that wrecked actor who is mostly looked down upon and regarded as a joke and I saw Nick. (It scared me a bit, really.) The other characters were also quite believable.

Plus: FUN!!! :)

Before we watched the movie we walked to the Dönerladen (what's it called?), so I had lots of time to think about nutty crossovers. My favourites are:

1. UNIT vs. S.H.I.E.L.D. (UNIT loses to SHIELD in a second, only to discover that all SHIELD members have been replaced by Live Model Decoys which the Doctor can switch off.)

2. The Tsubasa and xxxHolic characters travel to Marvel-universe. I didn't explore this one further, or maybe I did, but I forgot about it. Yuuko should meet Doctor Strange, of course, to see who's the Sorcerer Supreme, and to talk about not being able to intervene. Oh, and I think there was something in my head about the Doctor coming to the Marvelverse - ah, yes! I remember --

3. Daleks vs. Doombots. Still taking bets. What do you say, who will win?

I'm in love with Fuyumi Soryo.
Yesterday I read Cesare, the nine chapters that have been published so far, and being completely hooked by it I searched for the mangaka's other works and came upon Eternal Sabbath. Oh my. It doesn't have swords or magic, BUT it does have a plot, great characters, including one of the most interesting heroines I've seen in years, and moral dilemmata and character development... and while dealing quite a lot with thoughts about 'human existence' and other psychological and philosophical issues, it is never shallow or immature.
Apart from that - I just love Fuyumi's artwork. In Cesare, the detailed and vivid pictures pulled me right into the scenery of 15th century Pisa - I'm nothing of a history geek (sadly), but if my history lessons would have been like that, I sure I would have become one. Eternal Sabbath is not as stunning, but nevertheless still beautiful and exact, which fits the setting and characters (Kujou Mine ♥ is a neurologist, and, well, I'm not telling you anything about the other characters :)).


And now for something completely different - adressing the thousands of Tamora Pierce fans on my friendslist. xavie wrote a short Alanna/Harry Potter crossover for the otw_onlinecon-Fannish Past Challenge. The second part of this challenge says to cross your first fandom with your current fandom. Does anyone want to do it, too? There are certainly not enough crossovers in the world. I'm planning to write a short crossover, too, but I'm not sure if I'll manage it, I don't really seem to be in control of myself at the moment. (Where's that next chapter? Ah! *opens comic reader*)

1. Reading an ongoing manga series is clearly not the right hobby for me. Those chapters are awfully short.

2. What's the wank about? I heard that the fandom's reaction to this chapter must have been an uproar, but I'm not quite getting why that is. Probably there's some important detail I didn't understand. So... ( here be spoilers )

In other news, I have visitors for the WGT, but they're at a party now, so I can be at home alone doing nerdy stuff.
I made a new character for pen&paper rpg (DSA) who was inspired by TRC's Sakura. She has red hair, big blue-green eyes and is very cute. And a magician whose specialty is mind-control (für die ExpertInnen: eine Fasarer Beherrschungsmagierin). I enjoyed playing her so much, I have no idea how I managed without her.

Poll #1040 Stupid Prompt
Open to: All, results viewable to: All

Am I entitled to one whiny post once in a while?

Mhm.

( here's hints of even more spoilers, going further than these two eps, so skip and go to the second cut )








( squeeing first )

( thinky things )

Because thoran_ziyal tagged me. And I actually wanted to do it, because I need something like this.

The rules are easy, just post 10 things that recently made you happy! Then tag some people and force them to post this meme on their LJs. Because it is good. Everyone needs a little happiness once in a while.


- the iaido seminar: being able to practise five hours a day, no thoughts.
the sound of 25 iaitos (swords) cutting the air.
positive feedback.
25 people in gi & hakama (iaido clothes), i felt at home among them, the way i've only felt at home among roleplayer or on medieval markets.
oh, everything that has to do with iaido, even carrying my sword across town, feeling a bit like a warrior.
- today i asked the people from my iaido class if they'd like to continue training over the semester pause - they did. and thanked me for coming up with the idea.
- spending time with a. good time. and that he solved a problem and feels much better now.
- email and phonecalls from three of my best friends; spoke to my mother on the phone, too, and she didn't kill me when i said that it's possible i can't finish uni this summer.
- we had a 'bürgerentscheid' in leipzig yesterday. felt great to do something so very democratic, and we even won. :)
- the days when i manage to work on my thesis continuously and reach my target for the day. it makes me feel powerful and in control.
- the sun shining in my room.
- listening to stille volk and tri yann on my bed, when i realised that maybe, if i tried, i could still be the person i was in my best moments, because i can still feel the same way.
- and playing allan after that; playing my favourite characters often makes me happy.
- the ninth doctor's grin: helps me remember a different perspective on life. i just imitate it when i feel bad, and sometimes it cheers me up.


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you know, my dears, you should try this. i could think of only one answer before, now i have the required ten, some more in my head, and i really feel a lot better.

so, i tag , rood, liriaen, das_dingsi and everyone else who would like to do it. don't feel forced, though, you don't have to do anything. i'm just under the impression that it's worth a try.

and if you've already done it, forgive me, i'm quite a forgetful person.

Bahhhhhh! *fangirls*

( chaotic musings )

Titel: Landmarks
Author: lenija
Fandom: Guy Gavriel Kay's "The Fionavar Tapestry"
Characters: Sharra/Diarmuid, Paul, Jaelle
Rating: PG
Warnings: character death, but only what's in the canon.
Wordcount: 1781
Note: Written for Isagel in the yuletide 2007 challenge.
khana, Kelpie and Chris did the beta - thank you, my dears.
I haven't written much English fic so far, so con-crit, especially on the language, is very welcome.

( Sharra closes her eyes, and there are the Gardens. )

I'm a bit confused. I remember there were a thousand things I wanted to say, but it's escaped me what they were or maybe I just find it too tiring to concentrate on rearranging them.
A start: I wanted to rec some yuletide fics, including my own. Talk about being a Classic Who fan. Talk about specific episodes. Make a list. Finish the two Crossover-Meme-requests I haven't answered yet. Write about planning to write English fic and ask for prompts. Write stuff, answer some more requests maybe, at Yuletide or tausch_fiktion.
Also, there's RL, which means: There is the thesis. My plan is to make workplans (does planning to plan mean I procrastinate?) for every week and most of the days because if I don't do that I'll never really start. I want to put my notes in order, write a personal little bibliography including every text I've read for the thesis so far. Read that book I ordered from amazon when it arrives (Monday.) because the thesis is based on it. Print out the fanfics I decided to analyze. Make my wlan work. (uhm, yeah, I'm leaving the academic area.) Buy a headset and a dvd writer. See if my washing machine is really broken. Clean my flat.
Feel faint now, but I guess that's easily fixed with some food and drink. And the language mix in my head makes me dizzy today.

My Dears, I wish you all a fantastic year 2008. May all benevolent gods be with you.

We did a thing I would call a party in my flat. It had palatable alcoholic liquids and pizza and fireworks (the first rocket I ever sent up myself), and shiun was there, too!

The first wonder of the year has already happened here in Leipzig.
( wonder )